intention susan

uncertainty about ones future is no reason not to make a plan. i'm famous for "to do" lists but usually those are "have to" lists... so when dan says, how long to do think you would like to stay in georgetown, bahamas, i stammer, well, i don't know what it will be like there and, whether we will be exhausted, or... we are doing our homework... and by the readings and information we have been collecting, we can at least estimate what we want to take in in any given location... reading others' blogs has been very informative. to be honest, my way of making choices has not always been one of intention. i'm the easy going one; as long as the rest of the family was happy i was the one who also could make a good time. and even when an experience was not so good (and i can be honest, there were those times...) i could usually take that information and try to learn from it for the future... but what i have learned from all this is that, for the smaller decisions, i rarely created my own intention. this process was slow in evolving... what do you want to do susan? what serves you? the process is subtle; maybe unnoticeable to the observer... moving more consciously through my life creates new meaning. i have learned to start at the core. create the quiet so that i can listen. scan my body; keep my mind out of it initially. is my breath full and steady? let go of tension. i am a composite of my life experiences; the only child of a loving couple growing up in a small hamlet in western new york, an extension of a family seen in the community as physically strong, hard working, fair... my stay- at- home mom was the mirror who supported my individuality and encouraged me to do what i knew to be "right" and to be comfortable with the consequence... so decisions about what i want and what i need come from the route of "me"... to blossom, one must let go of some of the familiarity, the comfort zone... how will i know if the water feels refreshing unless i plunge in? so, when dan asked, do you want to join me in sailing around the world? my intention was clear when my answer was, yes.