It used to be said of me even as a youth: if the engine is running, susan is in the car! Suffice it to say, I was frequently on the go! Much of my information about the world was taken in by experience. I was curious and always up for an adventure!
Passage of time did not lessen the intensity of my life. The list of “want to dos” was always so long there was never time to sit down. Books, which I dearly love, were mostly read on vacation. My kids frequently directed me to just "chill"; a concept I did not seem to know.
I have not become a couch potato but I have noticed a change in myself. I am busy, but I am also content. Now with my empty nest I frequently find myself writing or reading of an evening (there is no TV by choice). I am able to take in world news and contemplate the society I am a part of; venturing to imagine how I might be a part of this world in a new less familiar way. The fear that the world is passing me by no longer pushes me out the door in search of a new play or the community committee meeting or any other stimulation.
It is said that one comes to a place at the end of life where we review our choices and outcomes; I feel I am at the beginning of a meaningful time of self-exploration and purpose! Dan and I have learned how to play together or do nothing (rarely does that happen…) and work hard together. We share with each other honestly and take input and direction from each other; respecting our unique individuality.
There is a richness that has come to my perception of living that is bigger than I could have imagined…